Love letter to my pookie

It’s hard for me to believe that it was 2 years ago you came into my life and changed it in ways that I never knew possible. That day, when I held you in my arms for the first time I knew I would never be the same person again. I always thought that I loved as much as humanly possible, but you showed me that I was wrong. You showed me how to love to the depths of my soul.

I dreamt for so long of who you would be. What you would look like. The personality you would have. I figured you’d be wonderful. But even the most vivid, perfect dreams could have never revealed your perfection. I still look at you today and think, “She came from me? Really?”

You make me laugh. You make me cry. You surprise me with your ability to comprehend and understand things that even some adults can’t. It makes me happy and also sometimes scared seeing how much you’re like me with you’re tentativeness in so many situations. Then I see how completely different you are with your ability to draw a crowd and make friends with your charm and sensitivity.

I love it that you’re affectionate. You love to play and you have an unbelievable imagination, but I don’t have to ask you twice when I want you to sit in my lap or cuddle with me on the bed. You love to give and receive hugs and kisses, which works out great for me because I give you plenty of both!

I feel as if you’ve been in my life forever. I find myself already dreading all of those days where I have to watch you take steps to growing up. Next month you start preschool! I still can’t believe it’s already here. I don’t think any amount of mental preparation is going to prevent me from crying the first day I have to drop you off.

Thank you for letting me occasionally hold you in my arms the way I did when you were a tiny baby. Thank you for letting me rock you before you go to sleep even though there’s no comfortable way to hold you in that rocking chair anymore. Thank you for making me the proudest mom in the world.

I cherish each day that I spend with you. Forever will never be long enough to have you in my life.

Happy 2nd birthday, baby. I love you.

Love,
Mommy